As I am writing this article tonight, I am thinking back upon a day that changed my life in so many ways.
Six years ago, at 43 years old, I was preparing to deliver our last child. Having another child was not something that we ever considered. Vacations, sleeping late, and enjoying visits with grandchildren were more of what we thought our “empty nest” years would be filled with. But, God had other plans, and it was a total shock to everyone!
Not only was I able to carry a perfect baby to term in what doctors called “advanced age,” but a surgery two years later would reveal a disease that according to my physicians, should have prevented me from ever having children at all. Yet, there I was a mother of 3, holding a new baby. Now, don’t get me wrong. Not everything was perfect. For the most part, I was miserable, tired, overwhelmed, and scared to death. And I prayed to God to deliver me from an intense fear. I had a ton of questions that never seemed to be answered.
Why me? Why us? Why now? What if…? Then the early morning hours of November 29, 2017, brought three words that were all I ever needed to get through not only the previous nine months but every moment of every day for the rest of my life.
There we were, in a hospital room, surrounded by doctors and nurses, and the only words that would come were, “God help me. God help me.” At that moment I sincerely meant it. I knew that there was only one person who could take away my fears, take control of the situation, and make something wonderful of it.
Moments later we were holding a 6 lb. 7 oz. little boy, and to this day when I think back upon it, it was as if time stood still, and a peace that I can’t explain fell upon us right in that room, and without any fear at all, we welcomed a miracle.
Tomorrow that little miracle will turn 6 years old, and I wonder quite a bit what God has planned for his life. I know that whatever it is, it has been orchestrated by the creator of the universe, and that in itself is amazing. And I think about myself in the midst of it all.
I still wonder why the Lord chose me to be a mother all over again.
One particular verse comes to mind, found in the Book of Esther, Chapter 4, verse 14. It is a statement made to Esther, who had been brought to the Persian empire by divine providence and made queen. She was in a position to save her people, the Jews, from death, but it may come at the cost of her life. Her uncle, Mordecai says, “And who knows but that you have come to your royal position for such a time as this?”
In one sentence he gives her encouragement like no other. By telling her that what was happening in her life may very well be the one reason that God created her for. You know, that is true for us all. No matter where you are, what you are dealing with, what you are going through, what you are facing. This could be the very moment that God created you for.
Maybe you were created to give life, change a life, or even save a life. Only God knows. But one thing is for sure, if we would only live our lives with confidence in the plan of God, great things would surely come to pass. If we will only live our life, "for such a time as this."
